i’ve decided to make another blog in my attempt to get over my ex. i’ve decided that it was time to move on because if i stayed in that train wreck, i’d eventually get hurt in the end coz inevitably one day, he’ll come to me and tell me he’s moved on or worse, has fucked someone else or more likely, other people. i can’t afford to sit around and wait for that day to happen, nor do i deserve it. a few nights ago i realized that it was hurting me and making me para ‘staying’ with him, but it hurt not being with him too. i had to accept that it is what it is. it’s shyt, we want different things, we’re not understanding each other anymore and it’s best if we just part ways and live our lives separately. i don’t know what the future holds for us, but i do know for certain that i own the now, and i intend to live it in the best way possible. i don’t want to be emo anymore nor do i want to be angry or have a low self-esteem from fucking unfair expectation’s put on by someone who i thought loved me.
god bless this blog for here i can openly say what i want *ahhh*
on another note, slowly creeping back are the fucking idiots who i used to be with *urgh* i think they think that cause i’m single, it means i’m going to give them a free fuck. they couldn’t be further from the truth. so i wrote this little blog post on my other blog to let them know how i felt:
I think there may be a slight misunderstanding here boys…. I’m single, NOT a free fuck. Although, there are brothel’s and escort’s you can go to & they will be more than happy to cater to your needs. So please stop contacting me if it’s ASS that you’re after.
note: this is in no way, shape or form directed at my ex/bf.
in the brilliant words of einstein, “doing the same thing over and over again and expecting the same results is insanity.” i’ve been doing the same fucking thing over and over again for years and i’m thru with it. i’m thru with fuckheads so from this moment on i’m starting from a clean slate; no more ex’s, no more fuck buddies, nothing.
it’s a new beginning for me and i love the person that i’m becoming x
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